Monday, November 14, 2011

quietly reflecting on starting again

It is quiet here.  Another day has rushed and swirled around us; time slipping quickly away.  My precious treasures are safely tucked into their beds.  The handsome hubby snoozes, keeping our king-size bed warm for me; I'll be there soon. 

I could  not resist a few minutes of quiet thought and reflection.  I have spent the past hour scanning my blog, reading old posts from 2009.  It was a good year for us.  I grew in the Lord a lot that year.  I'm glad I kept an account of our family on this blog. 

The past few weeks have been difficult for me.  I have done much soul searching and God seeking.  My biggest struggle, for better or for worse, is with food.  It seems so silly to type that out, but it is true.  Those who have a healthy relationship with food may not understand.  Those of you who cringed and felt instantly uncomfortable cause I just hit your ouchie button...  well, you get me. 

I have recently accepted the reality of my food problem.  I am fearfully and faithfully stepping out and trusting the Lord to be my everything.  Tomorrow, I quit sugar.  (Geesh.  Just writing that scares the crap out of me!)  I want to be what God has called me to be and scarfing down candy to comfort myself...  a-hem.  It ain't pretty.  I want to crave God more than I crave a SNICKERS. 

I need your prayers, please.  And I could really use your verbal support.  If you struggle in this area, please message me so we can encourage each other.  I am thinking of starting a support group here in Alamogordo.  We'll see how things work out. 

Tomorrow is a brand new day.  A day of freedom.  You might find me on my face before the Lord.  Here's to new beginnings!

2 comments:

Shannon said...

It's a battle. But with God you can fight and win.

Lindsay said...

Jess! Oh how I hear your struggle friend! I am also stepping out on this journey of a healthy food relationship! God is good! Will be praying for you, please pray for me!

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