Thursday, March 31, 2011

Seeds of LIFE

I have faith for a garden to appear this summer.  Our hearts are full of plans and dreams of watermelons, corn, tomatoes, strawberries, peppers and carrots.

Tiny seeds are promises of fruit, vegetables, flowers, trees and LIFE!  Planting seeds reminds me of how God sows within our hearts.  When we first surrender our lives to Christ, salvation is sown into our hearts.  Grace and faith take time to cultivate and thrive.  I have to take care of the spiritual seeds within my spirit.  If I don't water them with prayer and feed the seeds with the Word of God, they will wilt and my growth will be stunted.  But when I come to God on a a daily basis, like the sunshine miraculously grows the vegetable seedlings into full grown, mature plants putting forth delicious fruit, God's presence warms the seeds He plants within me and I grow in my faith.

Isn't it amazing that God allows us to be creators?  He allows His creations to re-create life as a woman grows a human being within her womb.  I can share in God's creative abilities as I follow the steps He designed, taking tiny seeds, poking them into wet soil, and expectantly waiting for the fruit of my labor.  It is God who knits the baby together inside me and it is God who allows us to reap what we sow.

God is showing me so much about himself as Jason and I begin our garden.  Right now we are working on finishing the deck.  The next step is fencing off our garden plot to protect it from children and animals.  Finally, when we know the garden will be safe, we will till the soil and put seeds and our seedlings into the ground.

I'll keep you posted.  

Friday, March 11, 2011

New Wiggles and Bittersweet Memories

The pregnancy is going well.  I think, but I'm not certain, I felt my newest baby wiggle inside my womb yesterday.  It was higher than I expected which then prompted research via my phone to investigate just where my uterus should be at this point in the pregnancy.  According to Google, at 16 weeks the uterus is about 2 inches below the belly button.  It amazes me that my baby is already rising up and growing so big.

The growth and life of this baby is bittersweet.  I have not forgotten Vivian.  She floats through my mind.  During the intense time of healing, God used many songs to bring me comfort.  When they come on the radio, all those memories of pain and loss barrel into my heart.  But the songs also remind me of the things God whispered to my heart that brought peace and healing.

I am hesitate to truly prepare for this new baby.  With each of my other children, I sewed a baby quilt during the pregnancy.  Even during those short few weeks when I was pregnant with Vivian I began to mentally plot out a quilt.  While I am dreaming of a baby in my arms come August, I want to wait until after 24 weeks to buy everything and design the new baby quilt.  Part of it is, I am exhausted and tired all the time and I struggle to maintain the home.  If I am honest with myself, I know the other reason is because of the fear of loosing another baby.

If I really believe God loves me, I can trust Him with my future.  If I really believe He loves my children, I can trust Him with their future.  Whatever that looks like.  I am learning to trust Him. I am learning to not be afraid of His plans for me.

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."  Isaiah 41:10

revolutionary love

I have experienced revolutionary love. Love with no strings attached. Jesus Christ loves me and made a way for me to have a relationship with the One True God. God desires a relationship with you, too. If you have yet to experience this revolutionary love, please email me at so I can share this amazing experience with you. Blessings, -Jess